Sonnet – Something I Heard Today by Melisha (mmebluestocking.nl)

December practice · sonnet & sketch


This December I’ve set myself a small, personal challenge:
to write one sonnet and make one pencil sketch each day.

It has been many years since I last worked seriously with sonnets, so I am listening carefully again, to meter, rhythm, and breath; learning as I go. I find myself enjoying the practice more than I expected: the slowness, the attention, the act of returning.

Each sonnet is paired with a pencil sketch, a quiet companion to the words.
If a line or image lingers, you are welcome to sit with it. Thank you for reading along this December.

Sonnet — Something I Heard Today

by Melisha

In our bed, with eyes still closed, I heard this sound. 

The sound of your breath moving near my ear.

My eyes stayed closed; I did not turn around.

Close to my heart, and never were you this near.

I felt the gratitude your simple ring brings.

There is no other place I wish to stay.

To have you this close feels like the best thing.

So here I lie until you go away.

Your breath is the song of your loving voice,

The part of you I love and care for long.

There is nowhere I would be by choice.

For every breath you take is love’s true song.

I hear your breath now louder deep in me.

Through all these years, it stays what it must be.

Sonnnet – After You

by Melisha (mmebluestocking.nl)

I walk where once your laughter filled the air,
The rooms still lean toward echoes of your name.
Time moves, yet leaves your absence everywhere,
A quiet ache that nothing seems to tame.

I speak to you in thoughts I cannot send,
In pauses where your answer used to stay.
Though distance insists that all sweet things must end,
My heart refuses to give you away.

Grief bends me low, yet teaches how to stand,
To breathe inside the weight of what is gone.
Your love still steadies me, a gentle hand,
A light I carry when the nights drag on.

So if I live, I do so holding true:
That I am shaped forever; loving you.

West Coast Girl – Always

There are places that stay in your bones.
For me, that place has always been the sea.

I was born near the ocean — on the west coast of a different continent — and although I now live 12,000 kilometers away, still I find myself by the shore, on another west coast, tracing the same horizon line with my eyes. The details have changed: the light, the birds, the temperature of the water. But the feeling? It’s the same. Familiar. Elemental. Like the sea is a language I was born speaking.

Each time I walk onto the sand, something quiet happens inside. I slow down, but more than that — I return to myself.
The ocean doesn’t ask anything of me.
It doesn’t care what I’ve achieved or failed to do.
It just is — vast, open, wild — and in its presence, I remember that I am too.

This morning, like many others, I brought a feather I found and began drawing a labyrinth in the sand.
Shell by shell, I marked a path — not to reach a destination, but to come back inward. My fingers pressed the lines into wet sand while the sea rolled in and the sun painted gold on the water.

And then, like always, the tide rose.
The lines blurred. The shells shifted.
And yet I didn’t feel any sense of loss. That’s the thing about the sea — it teaches you to let go.
To build anyway. To create beauty with full knowledge that it’s temporary.

I live a life shaped by many threads: clay under my nails, bees buzzing in my garden, words spilling into pages, rituals made of herbs, wax, and thread. But the sea is where I go to remember the oldest parts of myself. The parts no one sees, but that hold everything together.

People sometimes ask me if I miss “home.”
And yes — I do.
But I also carry home in my body.
In the way I notice the wind, in the pull of the tides on my dreams, in the spirals I draw in sand without even thinking.

So I come to the beach. I walk. I make. I listen.
Not to be productive, not to solve anything.
But to be in communion — with the world, with myself, with whatever is older than both.


Because even if the tide washes it all away…
the making, the being, the barefoot stillness — that stays.

🐝 update July

19.07:: Standing Guard at the Hive

Our bees are busy — not just gathering, but guarding.

Now that the honey is ripe and ready to be harvested, its sweet scent naturally attracts some unwanted visitors… Today, we spotted several wasps circling the hive, drawn in by the tempting aroma.

But our bees are not easily fooled or frightened.
They know what’s theirs — and they’re standing strong.

Like tiny golden gatekeepers, they line up at the entrance, wings ready, eyes sharp, fiercely protecting their queen, their colony, and their precious harvest. Watching them work together with such focus and loyalty is a quiet kind of magic.

💛 These little guardians never cease to amaze me.

24.07:: 🐝✨ Evening Peek at the Hives

A little sneak peek at our bees this evening…

We discovered two queenless colonies — which means tomorrow it’s time to unite them. With a few careful steps (and a sheet of newspaper as a bridge between the hives), we’ll help the bees merge into one strong, thriving colony.

It’s always amazing to witness how quickly they adapt when guided with care and patience.

And as a sweet bonus, we’ll be taking home some beautiful wild forest honey from the Delfse Hout 🍯

To be continued…

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De (zachte) kracht van klei

In mijn atelier, omringd door de geur van aarde en de stille, vormbare kracht van klei, ontvouwt zich telkens een bijzondere reis. Een reis van creatie, verbinding en transformatie. Mijn werk draait om het zichtbaar maken van de diepere lagen van het mens-zijn, geïnspireerd door mythen en verhalen die al eeuwenlang voortleven in de natuur en in onszelf.

Een belangrijk onderdeel van mijn creatieve proces is het maken van sculpturen van mythische figuren zoals Persephone, Cerridwen en Rhiannon. Deze godinnen belichamen de cyclische aard van het leven – groei, verlies, transformatie en wedergeboorte. Elk sculptuur dat ik creëer, is een tastbare vertelling van de innerlijke reis die we allemaal maken, van kwetsbaarheid naar kracht, van duisternis naar licht.

Klei als spiegel van de ziel


Klei is meer dan alleen een materiaal; het is een spiegel van ons innerlijk. Het laat zich vormen en transformeren, net zoals wij dat in het leven doen. Door mijn handen door de klei te laten glijden, geef ik uiting aan de diepe processen van groei en heling. De aardse texturen, de zachte lijnen en de ruwe randen vertellen een verhaal – over loslaten, opnieuw beginnen en de kracht die schuilt in het omarmen van verandering.

De verhalen die ik tot leven breng in klei, weerspiegelen de balans tussen kracht en zachtheid, tussen loslaten en vasthouden. Persephone, de godin van het leven en de onderwereld, symboliseert deze overgang als geen ander. Haar sculptuur vangt de melancholie en hoop die gepaard gaan met verandering. Net zoals zij elk jaar terugkeert uit de duisternis, herinneren haar vormen ons eraan dat na elke winter een lente komt.

Inspiratie uit oude verhalen

Mijn sculpturen vinden hun wortels in eeuwenoude mythologieën. Zo is er Cerridwen, de Keltische godin van transformatie en wijsheid, en Rhiannon, de godin van vrijheid en doorzettingsvermogen. Hun verhalen herinneren ons eraan dat verandering en groei universeel zijn, en dat ieder van ons een eigen pad bewandelt.

Het creëren van deze sculpturen is voor mij niet alleen een artistiek proces, maar ook een innerlijke reis. Het werken met klei helpt me om mijn eigen cycli van groei en loslaten te omarmen en biedt een manier om diepere verbindingen te leggen met mezelf en de verhalen die ons al generaties lang inspireren.

Laten we deze verhalen blijven vertellen – in klei, in woorden en in onze daden. Iedereen draagt zijn eigen verhaal in zich, en het is aan ons om het tot leven te brengen.

Taking a break from Scrolling

It’s nearly summer here in the Netherlands, and I feel the need for quiet.
For space.
For peace, calm, and free thinking — especially in these strange and noisy times we’re all living in.

So I’m going back to pen and paper. The old ways. A slower rhythm. Scribbling instead of swiping. And spending even more time bare feet in nature and in my studio. Creating and keeping my hands busy. There is still so much I want to learn and practice. Not by scrolling, but by reading about techniques and in methods in books and trying it out for myself.

This isn’t goodbye — just a gentle see you later.
And if you miss me, you know where to find me.
Write me a good old letter or send a card…. or Leave a note with the bees— and I promise I’ll send something back 🕊

Love you, see you, bye bye 🌿💛

Meeting myself

The child and the bear. The soft and the strong.

In my hands, I held the child I once was —

eager to please, quick to smile,

shaped by praise and quiet expectations.

And in my bones, I felt the rise of the bear —

grounded, fierce, no longer performing.

I used to think I had to choose.

Now I know:

healing is not about becoming one or the other.

It is about embracing both.

The one who learned to be good,

and the one who remembers how to be whole.

The one who was shaped to please,

and the one who dares to take up space. I Embrace Both

Studio update

Quiet moments in my clay studio, surrounded by sunlight, greenery, and a warm cup of coffee. There’s something meditative about shaping clay—slow, steady, and full of life.

From tiny charm figures to vases with their own personality, every piece carries a little story. And the clay on the table (and on my shirt) just means it’s been a good day. So happy with this project.

Mooie moederdag 2025

Een mooie Moederdag voor alle mamma’s! Iedere moeder verdient zo’n mamma beer stoel om je voetjes omhoog te doen en heerlijk te ontspannen met een favoriet boek, handwerkje en kopje thee (wijn) hahaha

Nog iets om jullie op te vrolijken. Tijdens onze roadtrip met de camper ontstonden deze klei-wezentjes — elk met z’n eigen persoonlijkheid, houding en blik. Kleine reisgenoten, gevormd uit rustmomenten en inspiratie onderweg. Ze lijken bijna tot leven te komen, alsof ze hun eigen verhalen willen vertellen. Zelfs in de camper kun je dus prima kleien… Zeker het proberen waard.

Welke is jouw favoriet?

Even een update over onze bijen op Koningsdag (26 april 2025):

We hebben onze eerste bijenzwerm geschept en alles verliep uitstekend. In de middag vertrok de oude koningin met ongeveer een derde van het volk en ging in een boom zitten.

Door regenwater te sproeien konden we de zwerm kleiner maken. Zo bleef er een groter deel van het volk in de kast achter en konden we rond 17:20 uur nog een mooie aflegger maken, voordat we beide volken naar de boerderij verplaatsten.

Het resultaat: drie sterke volken en één volk met een honingkamer erop.

#imkers#imkerij#imkerijbuytendelft @imkerijbuytendelft

🍏 Apple Blossom Magic in April

Just look at her bloom!
Our little apple tree is once again bursting with delicate white flowers — a promise of sweet, crisp apples to come. It always amazes me how much beauty and abundance one small tree can offer, especially right here in the heart of a city garden.

Even in an urban backyard in the Randstad, it’s absolutely possible to grow your own organic fruit. A little care, a little patience, and nature does the rest.

April in the garden is full of anticipation. Everything’s waking up — the bees are busy (you can just spot the hive in the background!), the soil is soft, and the light feels a little warmer each day.

I’m already dreaming of those first bites of sun-warmed apples come late summer. But for now, I’m simply enjoying the blossoms. Fragile. Fleeting. And full of life.

Meanwhile indoors::

🧵 Siem, My Little Shadow

Wherever I go, she follows.
And wherever I settle — at the sewing table, by the clay, in the garden — Siem finds a spot close by, usually right in the action.

Here she is, mid-inspection of my sewing supplies. That look? Equal parts judgment and devotion. She’s not entirely sure why I’m fussing with fabric when I could be scratching under her chin, but she stays. Always close. Always watching.

She’s my 10 year-young cat, my silent companion, my little shadow with sharp blue eyes and a heart that beats softly next to mine.

No matter what I’m making, it feels a little more complete with Siem by my side.

🐇 Stitch by Stitch — A Soft Bunny Takes Shape

27 March 2025:: Look who’s quietly taking shape on my sewing table…

This little long-eared bunny is still a work in progress, but already I can feel the life and character forming with every stitch. Made from soft, unbleached cotton and sewn together in the early light of morning, this one feels like a gentle breath of calm amidst the busy world.

There’s something incredibly grounding about dollmaking — the slowness, the silence, the rhythm of it. Cutting, sewing, stuffing, shaping… it’s like sculpting a story in fabric.

I haven’t added a face yet. Not quite ready. That part always feels sacred — like naming something. For now, she simply sits beside the threads, keeping me company, legs dangling over the edge of my sewing box.

I think she knows she’s loved already.